Upcoming Event
It’s so hurt to see all of them so enthusiast welcoming their graduation event…
It seems they are impatient to leave me alone with all these stuffs…
It also makes me more hurt by seeing their families are also so enthusiast to come to the event
Cos I know I’ll by myself at the next period…
Cos I know nobody will stand up for me in the backstage when I am graduating…
Nobody will cheer me up for my graduation…
I always know that I have nobody who cares and loves me…
Not like all of them who always have so many people that support and cheer them…
Missing and Blurring him
September 19, 2008
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Tags: dream, love, love dream and reality, reality, unconsciousness mind
People usually say that your dream represent what do you think, what do you want, and what do you have under your unconsciousness mind…
Maybe it is right? I’m still curious about the truth of dreaming…
Many times dreaming about him,and the next dream was always becoming more blur…I had forgotten about himself, but those dreams always remind me to the past…Since that I’ve always thought that he is my eternal love, love that I believe I won’t have it again in my future life…
But why did the dreams of him become more blur? Does it mean I’m start to lose his image? Or I’m start to forget him and let my heart to have another love?
I’m sure that I cannot give up with my love for him, even though it’s already seven years more…I’m still love him after seven years after our last meeting, meeting without any words,even farewell words..Believe that I will still have my feeling toward him in another next seven years…
Having this feeling, sometimes make me feeling like a silly girl, not a loyal..but silly…
Many question come up in my mind…Does he okay? Where is he now? Does he ever think about me? Will he has the same feeling in our next meeting? When will we meet?
I don’twant to have another blur dream…I still want to have his clear image, just as clear as his image in the previous seven years….
Learn to be a selfish person
August 14, 2008
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Tags: angry, goddess, goddess mask, mask, mood, person, selfish, selfish person
Being a selfish person is the best thing in the world.
No need to worry about other person, no need to remember other person’s birthday.
No need to help other person, no need another person to help you.
What for you care other person and try to help them, if there is nobody care about you nor willing to help you…
Everyone around yourselves is a fake, they just use a “goddess” mask.
When they need you, they will put the mask, but when they don’t need you, they will take off the mask.
When you have something good, they will wear the mask and go around you, but when you have nothing, they will leave you alone.
From now and forever, just live for and by yourself. No need to care about other…
wild grass
Woke up in the morning with a great burden in my back..Yep, b’cos there are too much trouble caused by several new staffs in the office. I don’t want to blame them because of become novice, cause I had felt how was it like to be novice with all work things and I’m also still novice in several parts.
I wanted to have one day off so that I can refresh my mind, mood and feeling. I wanted to run from another stress-day… I had imagined how fun a day off to shopping in a mall, but suddenly I thought, “How can I just want to give up..it’s just a small stress compare to the challenges that may comes up in my future”
Then I spoke to myself, “I don’t want to run, I’ll face it. No matter what the obstacle, I must work hard to handle it. I will work hard to handle my problem, just like wild grass. Those kind of grass are very strong, they never give up to defeat their life.. No matter where are they, they still can fight for live. No matter what the obstacles and the end result. Just fight and defeat”
Due to that thinking, I went to work with such a great mood and spirit. I believe by facing all of the obstacles, that will come up today, could be useful for my life. Just consider it as an exercise for my mental
I hope this post could help to cheer up other person who are having stress or feeling down.
Just thinking and acting like wild grass, defeating and fighting until the time is finished !!! ^___^
Halo…halo Bandung.. ^-^
May 14, 2008
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Tags: amanda, backpacker, bandung, brownies, ciumbeluit, dago, jakarta, kangaroo, kartika sari, kuliner, leuwi panjang, paris van java, pvj, travel, wisata kuliner
Wew, akhirnya..finally…gw menginjakkan kai ke bandung juga (katrok y..huehuehue)
Yah, pokonya gw senang dah bs ke Bandung.. naek angkot 4x dari Leuwi Panjang ke Ciumbeluit..all thanx to my fren yg udah sediain penginapan gratis.hwhwhw..
tapi betapa begonya gw, perjalanan yg bisa ditempuh dgan 2 angkot aja, knapa hrus sampe 4x ganti….apa itu karena insting gw yg udah hobi naek angkot ya? hiks…
Gw sampe di Bandung hari sabtu siang…langsung nongkrong di Amanda Brownies yang deket McD Dago..”nyammy..serbu brownies” itu yg langsung di muncul otak gw….hehehe..tp enak banget dah, gak nyesal gw ngehabisin 1/4 kotak sendiri..(rakus mode is on) (Read More)
My oh My…Stress
Tiap malem, gw selalu bermimpi buruk tentang deadline tuh project2 yg gw bantu handle.
“Buku-buku besar dengan covernya nama-nama project yg gw handle. Font covernya warna merah darah. Buku-buku itu mengejar gw dengan berteriak-teriak dan marah-marah, mereka menuntut gw supaya mereka cepat direlease (nb: release disini sm dengan di launching). Gw yang ketakutan, berlari-lari sampai terkencing-kencing”
Gw segera terbangun, buset..untung aja gw gak terkencing-kencing beneran, bisa berabe tar. Klo gw sampe terkencing beneran, tar si tante kos bisa mikir macem-macem
- Klo anak kosnya ini masih TK, cm badannya aja yang bongsor (kayak film “Jack“nya Robin Wiiliams)
- Gw adalah pelaku penculikan bayi yang lagi marak2nya skrg ini, dan kamar si tante gw buat markas
- Ini yang lebih gawat lagi, gw udah punya anak…
Oh..MG, untung deh, beribu2 untung gw gak ngompol. Anyway, back to the topic..yang pasti, skrg gw jadi takut tidur..takut ketemu ama tuh “buku-buku raksasa”
B3 10 and 01 at 2005
Tep2, Glo2, ama Cin2 adalah bestfriends pertama gw di kampus..too many things that I had done with them..too many memories to be forgot. Sometimes I hope that those time won’t pass (many times kayaknya, bukan sometimes lg ^-^).
First time, I thought that our friendship is really strange..
we are 4 girls with 4 different majors,
accounting, banking, hotel and tourism, and also information technology
but we were still becoming close to each other
With they, I had colorful days in dormitory for my first year..
When I was sick, they took care of me
When I was crying, they wiped my tears
When I was having lot of problems, they listened to and supported me
When I wanted to be by myself, they let me went for a while
When I was feeling lonely, they would come back to cheer me up
Still remember the time when we was
- sneaking to the boy’s dormitory till late night to watch Spongebob Squarepants movie
- studying till late night for every exam until late night in the first semester
- having breakfast and dinner together
- palying cards with Mr. T
- waking up each other every morning
- waiting each other, then went to campus together
I do really hope that I can back into that time, and it won’t pass anymore
But..
Life must goes on, eventhough it’s though and hard enough to accept that reality
But..deep inside my heart,
I’ll always remember those beautiful memories and keep this sweet friendship ^,^
Jadi karena saking terharunya gw ama persahabatan kita ini, gw sampe colong foto mereka satu2, trus gw combine kayak ini nih.hehehe. g bagus2 bget sih, maklum deh..amatiran gitu loh di photoshop. Anyway, yg ptg makna dan niat di balik image ini aja deh..
Express your love
April 16, 2008
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Tags: cinta, kasih, love, orang tua, sahabat, sayang, teman, terima kasih, ungkapan
Pada suatu tempat, hiduplah seorang anak. Dia hidup dalam keluarga yang
bahagia, dengan orang tua dan sanak keluarganya. Tetapi, dia tidak
pernah mensyukuri betapa baiknya kehidupan yang dia miliki. Dia terus
bermain, menggangu sanak keluarganya kalau mereka tidak mau bermain apa
yang dia ingin main. Tetapi, ketika dia mau minta maaf, dia selalu
berkata,
“Tidak apa-apa, besok kan bisa.”
Ketika agak besar, sekolah sangat menyenangkan baginya. Dia belajar,
mendapat teman, dan sangat bahagia. Tetapi, dia tidak pernah
mensyukurinya. Semua begitu saja dijalaninya sehingga dia anggap semua
sudah sewajarnya. Suatu hari, dia berkelahi dengan teman baiknya.
Walaupun dia tahu itu salah, tapi tidak tidak pernah mengambil inisiatif
untuk minta maaf dan berbaikan dengan teman
baiknya. Alasan dia,
“Tidak apa-apa, besok kan bisa.”
Ketika dia agak besar, teman baiknya tadi bukanlah temannya lagi.
Walaupun dia masih sering melihat temannya itu, tapi mereka tidak pernah
saling tegur. Tapi itu bukanlah masalah, karena dia masih punya banyak
teman baik yang lain. Dia dan teman-temannya hampir melakukan segala
sesuatu bersama-sama, makan, main, kerjakan PR, dan jalan-jalan. Ya,
mereka semua teman-temannya yang paling baik. (Read More)
It is my first blog in wordpress
Wlopun pada awalnya gw berkeras gak mau buat blog, tp berhubung orang2 yg gw kenal belakangan ini selalu tny “blog u apa?”
Jadilah gw terpengaruh untuk buat blog..hr gini ht loh..masak iya masih gak punya blog, apalagi gw anak IT.. ^-^
Thank buat pihak2 yang telah mempengaruhi gw untuk punya blog ya.hehehe…
October 7, 2008
